In less than 6 months I will face River's 10 year anniversary. Part of me wants to be done. I'd say a good percentage. Isn't it long enough to be apart? But then, I am torn.
I just want to complain today. I want to run away. I want to run....away....I want to run.....run....to something. I want to run....to someone....I want to hug and kiss my sons again. I want to run to them and hug them and smell their sweet smells. Believe it or not, I still have their smells, individually logged in my brain.
I want to run....so I will. This is a new chapter of my life. Running. I am not running away anymore. But I am running towards something. My goal. Heaven.
I miss Blaze more than my next breath. He was extraordinary. I am so blessed to be his Mommy.
|Blaze in my belly, wishing I could freeze time.|